The Future Calls For It

I talked to my future sister-in-law and she was telling me that they, she and my boyfriend's brother, are most likely to migrate mid next year. I was surprised because she was telling me before that they're gonna migrate after 5 more years. She told me that she was shocked as well. They'll already start reviewing for the IELTS exam, which is a requirement for migration, next week.

As I think of us doing the very same thing more or less 3 years after this year, something got over me, which I believe he wouldn't like. My dream is to actually be a Marketing Manager and has a part-time in hosting at GMA or in ABS-CBN shows at the same time. I would love to stay here in Pinas a bit longer before going to Australia. I still want to enroll at Fashion Institute of the Phils and take up Haute Couture while I am working. I still want to enroll at CCA Manila. I still want to save to buy my own car and drive myself wherever my job takes me. I still want to be free from anything I know could wait. I still want to enjoy life before I settle down.

I know he really wants to go to Australia as soon as possible. If I could only say that I want to stay here for a while and follow them after a year or two. I wish it is as simple as it seems but I know it would be very hard for the both of us. It may take us a lot of heart-to-heart conversions to come up with the best decision. I want him to be happy. I actually want us to be happy but my happiness will require quite sometime to be fulfilled. My dream may require a distance for it to come true. My passion may require us to sacrifice for a while for it to be fruitful. It may be hard for us but I don't want to end up saying "I could have been.. if.."s.

Yes, I know that I should cross bridge when I get there but I should start weighing things now before that time comes. I don't want to regret anything. I want to make my decision right and fair.

Now, all I have to do is to continue praying for me to end up with the best solution and I hope I will be able to fulfill my dreams before settling down.




Originally typed in Notepad. Dated 12 October 2009